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So go go! And relink me please. Thanks. Oh, oh. And tag at my new blog ;)

How could I have forgotten about this!
*hyperventilates!*
Overdued..

Had my arm around his waist! AAAHHH!! Almost died from hotness.

Eye candy !!
Cool or what?
Cabbage and I on set filming with UTT on his new show with Sonia and Nadya and they're both very very pretty.
They're MTV VJs, in case you don't know who they are :
Sonia: Click here: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sonia_Couling
Nadya: Click here: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Nadya_Hutagalung
Utt: Click here: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Utt_Panichkul (*gasps* HOW CAN YOU NOT KNOW WHO HE IS! Cute guy in Brands adverts, host of Incredibles Tales)
If you want more hotness: Click here

I don't know when the show is gonna air but it's gonna air on MTV Channel on cable.
But, I don't think I wanna watch myself on TV. Ho Lord.
Filming was tiring but totally fun.
Spent a whole day and Utt was HOT HOT HOT!
Hugged him and TOUCHED HIS ASS.
Jealous not? Huh? Huh? HUH?
Totally smitten. Fun to be filming with him! Hope they'll be more chances in future.
Loves!

p/s: I know you totally envy me. MUAHAHAHAHA.

Bye Anderson.
You suck and are made of a bunch of liars.
That's all I can say.
I don't base this on one occasion, but many.
It is the experience I got from the past 5 years.
If you are expecting me to miss the times I spent there, sadly all I can say is that the best times I've had there was with 3/6 in 2007,
and of course the times with Darling there.
In fact, Darling is the only reason I'm not saying I regretted going there,
even though the bad factors would outnumber the good ones any day.
3/6 was the only place I felt I belonged.
We were a family and we always will.
Proved by the fact that only Clint and Adeline SMSed me to ask me how I am over the past month.
Sometimes the people whom you think would care, don't.
And many times the people whom you think you did not matter to them, care more than anyone else.
They proved this fact and guys, thanks very much.
I love 3/6 '07, as corny as it sounds.
You guys are always the first ones to have me in your minds and hearts.
Been friends since Sec One with Clint and Adeline.
Clint, 5 years being in the same class with him, always appreciated his presence even though we hardly chat,
especially in Chinese lessons because it was always just the two of us.
Strange how we always got into the same class.
It seemed only yesterday when you were that quiet geeky guy with the black-rimmed spectacles,
sitting in the corner of the class during Sec One orientation.
I watched you change from a quiet guy to the tall, dark, funny guy you are now.
Adeline, my best friend from Sec One. We may only have been in the same class up til 3/6,
but everytime I hang out with you, it always seems like we were back to being best friends in Sec 1.
We went through ups and downs but we've let bygones be bygones.
Thanks you two. I really feel all your love and yes, we'll always be a family in 3/6.

Of course, Darling  was the only reason I would ever miss being in Anderson.
He was the only thing that made my first 3 and a half years worth while.
Needless to say we went through too much. I'm glad we survived.

I guess these are the only memories I'll keep.
The rest, are gonna stay there when I take my last steps outta there.
Never thought I'd ever have a chance to say all this.
Buttholes.

I don't need anyone to question the ways I live my life.
The reason why I sometimes isolate myself from the world is because others are always so nosey.
The people who I thought would ask and care, don't. Sad fact of my life.
Friends are fickle. Three is always too many and considered a crowd.
I experienced this fact too many times in my life, how many more times are needed to learn from this stupid mistake?
I'm always the second one. I said so the last time and I keep my stand about it.
The first person both of you would think about is each other.
Where do I stand?
What a fool I am.
How did I ever expect anyone to stick around?
Cabbage has a best friend for 10 years and he was her friend since Sec One.
Must be good to be in such a sitch.

Hope the wind catches me one day and fly me somewhere safe from worldy affairs.
Tired from trying to upkeep appearances.

P/S: 'Butthole' is a totally awesome word I learned in the past hour. From who? Billy Ray Cyrus ;)

P/P/S: Darling gave me a surprise present on Saturday and it turned out to be a super chio pink lava lamp with stars in it! Photos next post.

Today, I was wondering why people ever self-proclaim themselves to be 'princesses' of some sort.
I think I may look like the type who has done such a thing before, but I'm not. Haha.
Why would anyone do such a thing?
Unless you really are a princess of course, but if you really are a princess, there would be no need for all this self-proclaiming.
But seriously, what's the use when you self-proclaim to be someone that's not really you?
In my opinion, if ever I want to self-proclaim, I would say I am definitely the most pet loving person you know so far in your life.
Which is, in all honesty, true to a large extent unless all the people you know are volunteers at SPCA or vets or something.
What is the meaning of this starting paragraph, you ask. I know not, either. Haha. It is just my worthless opinion :)

There are some things I wanna say so bear with me as most are belated.
28 September
Happy Birthday Patches! Wow, you've entered my life for 9 months now. How time flies!
There are so many things I want to say to you, I just wish you could understand what I say.
From the first moment I set my eyes on you (your adoption photo), my heart had to have you, my life had to have you.
I knew I could settle for nothing less than you.
It was a miraculous day when Darling and I made a trip to a pet shop.
This pet shop NEVER EVER sold cats before. They always sold little cute puppies which I love as much as cats.
Yet that fateful day, 27th November 2008, I saw a cat for sale, just one, about 1 year old.
I went home and whined to Mommy how much I wanted a cat, even though I knew never in a million years would she allow me to get one.
When it comes to making such decisions, Mommy would always push the decision to Dad, saying that he would not allow and he wouldn't like it,
so she asked me to go ask Dad (he happened to be at home that day, not working).
Me, knowing that Dad would never in a million years allow, too, I crestfallenly told Mommy, never mind, forget it.
So I dragged Darling to take a nap with me, just so I could go sulk in bed, which is my Holy Sulking and Sobbing Area.
Then I heard Mommy and Dad talking outside (softly, i don't know why) then Dad went to nap too.
So I was whining to Darling
(he was sleeping on the bottom pulled-out guest bed just beside my bed) and I was close to crying (eh, don't judge. I really wanted a cat).
Then suddenly Mommy told me to go out to the living room and talk to her. I assumed she wanted to comfort me on this lost cause.
Then she said my Dad allowed! But they felt that if we were going to have a cat, why not adopt a homeless one from SPCA?
So that night, I excitedly went to SPCA's website and looked in their adoption gallery.
That was the Holy Moment when I saw that lil kitty who's sleeping in the closet right now, for the first time.
Her photo was small, just her face. But something right there stole my heart there and then. I knew I had to have her.
That, is the little photo in the adoption gallery I saw that night. Oh my God, this may sound soppy but, I am crying while typing all this!
The caption said 'Patches is a crowd-loving kitty'. It's so true, she isn't afraid of strangers(to her) aka relatives who come visit.
I love her a lot, very very much, I do. I don't think I would be this happy now without her existence.
Tell me, how can ANYONE deny that the lil kitty in this photo is cute!
Her big ears didn't bother me, in fact, it contributed to her cuteness in a way.
What captured me were those soleful eyes, not daring to lift her head to look at anyone or in this case, the camera,
yet those eyes contained a desire to play, to be held and loved.
And of course, her NOSE (you knew this was coming, didn't you?).
What can I say about her cute cute nose? It speaks for itself.

She was Number 1 on my list of 'Cats to look at' that I wrote that night.
It was a Thursday. I suggested to Mommy to go down to SPCA on Saturday to adopt a kitty (in my mind, to adopt Patches).
Mommy, knowing that I had my mind set on that lil kitty with a patch for a nose, said that by the time we go down on Saturday,
the kitties would be adopted already, so she said we would go the next day.
28th November 2008, I was praying all the way down to SPCA that Patches would still be there.
When Mommy, Sis and I were waiting for Darling at Toa Payoh Interchange, I was so excited and I was hoping he would hurry and reach.
We took a bus there to SPCA after he reached. The moment I got there, I immediately looked for that lil black nose.
Of course...
There she was, 2 months old, with the same sad pair of green eyes that dared not challenge itself to look anyone in the eye (unlike her black sister in the background).
Of course, I didn't notice this feeling she had at that time. It was only after we got her and looked at this photo. This is the first ever photo I took of her.
She must have seen so many people glance by and leave that she gave up hoping that someone would not only glance at her and stay,
but have eyes for her and only her.
I didn't look for the other cats on my 'Cats to look at' list.
In fact, it was only after I got home, looked at this photo and saw Patches' black sister in the background looking at me,
did I realise I did not even look at the other cats.
Actually, I vaguely remembered Patches was not alone in the cage, instead of remembering 2 sisters were with her in the cage.
To you, both might mean the same thing, Patches was not alone, there were 2 others cats with her in the cage.
But it is different! I remembered Patches was not alone, instead of remembering that there were 2 other sisters in there,
because I was focusing only on her. It's ok if you don't understand. It's love. It is.
I don't know if I was the person whom she was secretly waiting for, deep in her heart with the teeniest spark of hope,
but when the person-in-charge took her out to let me hold her, she was quiet and didn't move nor struggle.
I didn't know if she was used to people leaving after holding her, or if she was timid, she just didn't move.
The person was kind of stunned when I handed her back to him and said we'd take her.
"We'll take her."
"Huh?"
"We'll take her!"
"Oh, ok!"
We took her home, and the rest was history. She took time to adjust to her new home, hiding under the sofa while we watched Little Nyonya that night.
Today, you are no longer the inferior, quiet kitty you were 9 months ago.
Look how you've grown!
Brat who doesn't want to look into the camera!
I am sobbing right now, I don't know why, but I just love her and no words can express it.
Thank you Patchie, for licking me on nights when I quarrelled on the phone with Darling,
for lying quietly beside me during moments when I wanted to be alone, for stealing my heart from the moment I set my eyes on you,
for listening to my troubles even though you knew they were stupid. Your presence was enough to comfort me during days when I was down.
I love you very much ♥
When you were barely 3 months old. Baby girl :)

3 October
Happy Birthday Jasper Bro! I am sincerely happy that we grew up together as a group of cousins and I love us all very much.
The last time I remembered, you were in Primary 6 and I was Primary 4!
You were at Grandma's house after your PSLEs and we played games on the computer together.
That day, it was just you and me there because it was a weekday, not a Saturday, when it was always crowded.
We had fun. I think you don't remember that day anymore, but I do.
I remember you used to piggy-back me in the pool when we were at our annual family chalet,
while Nicolas would piggy-back Sufen. We'd play Shark and splash around in the pool!
Time flies and now you're 19 and I'm 17. The last time I remembered, you were sheltering me with an umbrella at chalet 2 years back on a rainy night,
when I was done from using Cabbage's laptop at the lobby.
Your paragraph may be shorter than Patches' but no doubt the things we've all done together as The Sterrz since we were tiny kids are way much more than my memories with anyone else. And all of you hold an equal position in my heart ♥
You're never gonna read this, but still, love you and HAPPY BIRTHDAY Sleeping Beauty Barbie! HAHAHAHA. *evil laughs*

Today
Happy Birthday Xiaozhu!

My camera is so wonderful, I know. Haha! Just kidding. I really love this cute photo!

My cutie pie! You were the first to be taken a photo of with my camera! And it took pretty and clear photos of you.
My lovely baby loves sunflower seeds and treats. And by the way, I forgive you for biting my finger the other time so hard I nearly flung you off.
I love my hammy Xiaozhu! Actually you are already more than 1 year old but I don't know how many weeks old you were when we got you 7th October 2008,
so we just decided that your birthday was the day we got you. Anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY LOVE! ♥


Alright, end of birthday wishes. Now to introduce you to...

Shroom Shroom & Xiaoyu ! Xiaoyu is the fatter one, a boy boy! A grumpy one at that. Look at this face.
Apparently, he likes to scream. If you haven't heard of a hamster screaming before,
well, you can't imagine it. Haha. They both don't bite and are mine and Darling's two hammy babies!
Lookie at their wonderfully awesome pink bedding! I would be very happy if I were them and I get to live in a pink cage with pink beddings, pink wheel and pink strawberry gumdrops and biscuits specially for hamsters. Dang, are they fortunate or what!


This is Shroom Shroom, the girl and the smaller one. Very sweet. She doesn't mind coming out to play occasionally on my palm.
She loves running on their wheel while Xiaoyu just likes to sleep. The other day, he was sleeping on the wheel but Shroom Shroom wants to run so she tries to push him off but he is too fat. He continued to sleep even though his butt got pushed off the wheel and his head is still lying in there.
Sleep is his root of fattiness. Haha.

Alright, end of my (quite) long entry. I hope you think I deserve my self-proclamatory of being the most pet-loving person you know.
In fact, I should be the one who is working in Pet Lovers, not Darling.
Just one last thing before I go..

HAPPY 4TH ANNIVERSARY, DARLING ! ♥
Looking back, 4 years seems like a very long time. It wasn't easy for us but I never ever regretted any moment we spent together!
Our 4th anniversary has finally come and I'm really happy and thank you for everything you've done for me and everything you do for me everyday.
I L♥VE YOU!!!!!!
♥♥♥♥♥♥
P/S: I reeaallyy ♥ this colour very very much! I can go crazy just looking at it! Mad, I know. Keep it to yourself.

For all my life, Cabbage has always said I was a strange girl.
Never really thought much about it but nowadays I feel confirmed of it myself.
Why can't I lead a normal life like a normal girl?
Might be boring but somehow much easier than being me.
Something went wrong somewhere on the road sometime in my life.
I wonder what.
If I had a time-turner I would turn back time a fair bit to see me go through stuff again and figure out what went wrong.

What can I say? I really have nothing to say.
The whole world can just disappear and I wouldn't care.
I don't know what's up with me.

You're right. There is something wrong with me.
Blame your f-ed up system and everything all of you have ever done to me for the past 5 years.
Yes, all of you. 5 years. I hate you and even though I wouldn't say I completely regret going there 5 years ago,
I still hate everything that all of you are.

Enough said.

I think I'm dead to the world, like seriously.
Forgotten by all.

Long time since I reeaally blogged.
By really, I mean overlooking that tiny previous post that's almost not a post at all.

Is knowing someone inside-out a good thing?
I think it's a good thing but it's kind of frustrating some of the time.
Like, when that person purposely denies his feelings just to hide them from you,
yet you know that he really really feels that way, you find of want to jump up and down and flap your arms about in frustration.
Ok, this is a meaningless paragraph. Scratch this out.

Ahem. So...
Happy Eve of Patches' Birthday!
Still haven't bought her present ...

My hamham Xiaozhu's birthday is coming after Patches'. It's on the 7th.
In case you are wondering why Patches' birthday is before Xiaozhu's even though Xiaozhu came before Patches,
here's the reason. We adopted Patches on the 28th November and she was 2 months old at that time.
So we took her birthdate as 28 and minus-ed 2 months, so her date of birth is 28th September 2008.
We got Xiaozhu on 7th October, before Patches came. But we didn't know how old she was when she came,
so we took her birthdate as the date she came. See?
I think you can't make sense out of all this but never mind. It's really simple actually.

I'm not a cookie-cutter kind of girl, and that's nice to know.
Perhaps that's the reason I feel like the odd one sometimes.

Gah, my blog has lost it's entertainment value.
Kind of pissed with OnSugar because everytime I try to upload photos, it cocks up.
Son of a douchebag.
I shall try again now ....

nao hia. It doesn't work. I even uploaded a small picture because I thought my pictures were too big for it to upload.
It still doesn't work. Angry. Think I shall move back to Blogger after all.

Bought a new camera like, 3 weeks ago or something?
OMG. I haven't registered the warranty online!!!!!!
Ok, doing it now. It's a Sony Cybershot. And well, guess what? It's PINK!
HAHAHAHAHAHA. Makes me wanna giggle with joy everytime I say it.
I love it very much very much! It takes very nice clear photos. No more blur shots from now on!
Except for when my hand is shakey, of course.

How many times must I go through this before I learn that 3 is a crowd?
I'm always the outsider, the odd one. I don't think I ever fit before.
Like a puzzle piece which doesn't fit, yet it forced itself to fit in. But it's picture doesn't belong there.
That's just the way it is.
Should have left the previous time, why didn't I? I was foolish to think that I mattered enough to you.
You guys can find all the excuses in the world, preoccupied blah blah.
But there's one thing I can say that will render all your reasons as excuses,
and that is that I will definitely send my friend an sms of concern asking how she is if I hadn't heard from her for a long time.
I will never, I repeat, NEVER go on with my life not knowing what's up with her, like you guys, no matter how busy I am.
Once again and never again, situations show that I must never ever let myself feel attached to any friend, ever again.
Everytime I just get hurt by ignorance towards my feelings. You may say I'm being unreasonable,
but like I said, I would never have done the same as you and not ask my friend how she is.
And yet you can appear so cheery about it.
I apologized for the previous time we had a tiff, when I had all the right in the world to be upset about things.
Why? Because I was too afraid to lose the ones close to my heart.
Now, things just show how foolish I was. And that's just the way it is.
I don't want to be a hypocrite and hide my feelings.
I have no way to say all this, other than on my blog.
Then again, I doubt any one reads my blog these days.
Like I said, I'm forgotten and dead to the world.

I think if I'm moving back to Blogger I won't be using back the same url.
Perhaps I wanna keep my blog private for a while so I won't let much people know about my url.
I feel like I just want to be left alone for a while. Besides, nobody really cares whether or not I crave company.
I've been feeling down in the dumps for a while,
with all that diarrhea and headaches and backaches and fever and whatnots going on for the past month.
Who knew? Not any one of you. Why? Nobody bothered to be concerned.

Ok, done with registering my warranty online.
Sneezing like mad this morning. My nose is gonna drop off soon if it continues.
My eyes are starting to tear now from all the sneezing. Please don't let my eyes swell like the other time.
Roller Coaster Kingdom went through maintenance the other day and is no longer as fun nor easy to play.
Sad.

Oh by the way, Darling started work on Monday. Full-time, so sad.
I can only see him on his 1 weekly off-day. Or if I go meet him for dinner,
but it's all the way at Parkway Parade so it's soooooo tedious to go there just to meet him for an hour's dinner break.
It has good pay though, so I told him not to quit his job just for me. Hehe.
He's already requested to be tranferred to Northpoint's outlet so I should be able to see him more if he comes here!
Happy happy. He's gonna get me a Nintendo DS Lite!

Alright, going to go play with tomorrow's birthday girl now. My baby girl :)

♥

With each passing day, the dread thickens
and gradually the dust becomes a blanket that shields the deadened warmth emitting from an empty heart.

Nothing else to say, the above is all that can come from me right now.
I know my blog has been neglected for half a century or something,
but I'm considering moving back to Blogger because OnSugar seems wonky to me.

Alright. Off to get a cure from my precious Fatty. Meow.

Did a quiz on Facebook.

Here are the results:
You were born on Thursday
Since you were born has passed 17 years.
Since you were born has passed 208 months.
Since you were born has passed 907 weeks.
Since you were born has passed 6,359 days.
Since you were born has passed 152,629 hours.
Since you were born has passed 9,157,761 minutes.
Since you were born has passed 549,465,635 seconds.

Funny Facts:
Your heart beat 732,437,691 times
Your hair grewn 260 cm.
You slept 50,872 hours
You ate 7,058 kg. of food
You drank 9,036 liters of liquid
You walked 36,882,200 steps, about 12,260 km.
You blinked 97,674,240 times
You farted 95,385 times, producing 286 liters of CO2 (carbon dioxide) and 222 liters of CH4 (methane).
You urinated 21,621 times, almost 9,221 liters.

What I am most dissatisfied is, my hair only grew 260 cm?!!!
I gotta grow more man! Grow faster luh!
So slow. Sighs.

I did my nails on friday after I bought 2 new bottles of nail polish from FaceShop at Northpoint!
Spent the whole day after school doing them. I have chio nails now.
They're kind of done roughly because I was in such a hurry to finish them.
Oh wells. Might wash them off on Wednesday or something and redo another chio design,
after I find my nail art brushes.
I took more than 3 hours to finish them.
I have a lot of patience towards myself, but not others. Sad but true.

p/s: Joycelyn must be very happy that my two latest posts have lots of photos. She's always saying that my blog has no photos. Haha.
Are you happy now, babe?

(This is the unfinished post that I saved as draft the other day)

Long long post because there are lots of photos.

It's Thursday already! This week has been so eventful time flew.
Shall let photos do the talking.
First set of photos are uploaded on Facebook and let me say,
please applaud our courage to post them up for the whole world to see,
because those photos are FUGLY! God damn motherfucking ugly.
So if you wanna see me being ugly please click here.
It's really worth it if you go see it. Just try not to burst out laughing at us.
MUST SEE AH!

Alright, now I shall upload the more human-looking photos here.

They are all my cousins and we are known as The Sterrz-.
Why The Sterrz-? Well the story started one chalet,
when Cabbage started calling everyone with a 'ster' added behind our names.
Like Cabbage is Yingster, then there's Boonster, Siangster, Pinsterr, Fenster, Xiangster and me of course is Minster.
Hence the bunch of us were known as The Sterrz- ever since.
The funniest part is the two little ones are called Monsterrz. Because they really wreck havoc.
My mum told me that my Grandma never ever scolding them when they were young,
and neither did she ever scold us. She only scolded the two little ones.
That goes to show how horrible they are.
The two little ones are Gerald Tan TingHe, Primary 2 now and his sister, Helecia Tan ZiYing, K2 now.
All their photos are below. Had my eyebrows done again before that day. Haha.
I'm a vain pot. Darling, Cabbage, Bernard and I went there together.
But Darling had fever and was not feeling well for the whole day.
At night, my uncle fetched Bernard and Darling to Pasir Ris MRT Station so they could go home from there.
I tagged along just so I could make sure Darling was okay.
After dropping them off at Pasir Ris MRT Station, uncle drove me back to the chalet,
where I continued roasting marshmallows. I tell you,
I am the Royal Marshmallow Roaster! I barbecue the best roasted marshmallows around.
Sufen and Vinni are my disciples. Haha they call me Shi Fu!

Nic's birthday chalet was at Hometeam NS Pasir Ris chalet. I actually like it there more than our usual Costa Sands Resort chalet,
even though it was very remote there. It's a semi-detached with 4 bedrooms, living room, backyard, kitchen and 2 bathrooms(excluding the one in the master bedroom).
The rooms are all air-conditioned and each has 2 beds, like this one.
We took mattresses from 3 bedrooms and put them together in one bedroom.
Haha. We are all so close that we are used to being together even when we are sleeping. Lol.

Sisters for life. Nic was right.

"Hmmm... What to wish for?"

Wear vest then can make wish, then will come true immediately.

Ah! Wish for mama! Comes true immediately indeed.

Ok I now I'm very lame. Moving on...

Cousins! With the 2 little terrorists. Helecia insisted on having me 'draped' over her. Thats why I'm wrapped around her. She's so cute.

Don't ask me why I look odd here. We were scheming to put the cream on Nic's face.
We ate the cake and used our hands to wipe the remaining cream on Nic's face. Ambush!
The three of us had fun planning this.

Birthday Boy Nicolas got cake on his face 3 times that day. Happy 21st!

Me blowing a hugeass balloon. Doesn't it look scary here? Like it's going to burst anytime soon. Sorry to disappoint you, it didn't. HAHA.

Delicious grassjelly from the buffet!

Cousins forever! Look at Gerald's face! He's the small boy.
I like this photo!

This is a pretty photo! Too bad it's blur. HAHAHAHA. I look so mature. Ahem.




VinniVinniVinni. Tiny heart balloons! In the end I got very warm so I just clipped up my fringe for the rest of the day.

With beloved Boon! My biao ge. Always the funny one.

My beloved Grandma. She took care of all of us and never ever scolded us. I love her so much, I don't wanna imagine her gone. Please.

Introducing.. Helecia aka Terrorist 2 aka Little One 2! Her brother is Terrorist 1. They are the only 2 ones who do not have the same nose as all of us, because they inherited their mother's nose.
Pretty girl, so vain still want to act camera shy.

After taking this photo, she looked at it and said," 看不到你的眼睛！"  ("cannot see your eyes!")
And so to satisfy her I took another photo with her. And hence that explains my fringe in the next photo.

After I swept my fringe and took this photo she said,"Ok, 看得到你的眼睛了。" ("ok, can see your eyes already")

Look at her eyes! She has those terrorist eyes. I like this photo though. Because I look happy. Haha!

She's so cute! Cuter than her brother. LOL. Oops.

Gazing at the buffet outside through the glass. FOOD~!

And here is Gerald, Helecia's brother. TERRORIST 1 aka Monster 1 aka Little One 1.
I asked him to act cute and he gave me this look. Goodness, such a horrible boy. He's really spoilt so he's very naughty.
Hence they are called Monsterrz. That's their mommy beside him. Doesn't Helecia look like a copy of her mother?
Look at the next photo.

The noses are the same. Haha.

Night time! Why do we look like ahlians in this photo? Haha! Camwhores. I love you many many! But I still like this photo. Chio! Haha.
We played Guitar Hero all the way til about 4.30AM. I miss playing Misery Business by Paramore on Guitar Heroes.
Fun fun. Rocking the whole night away. Which reminds me, my real guitar is rotting in the corner of the room now.
Someone help me tune it please!

The next day, we were off to KBox at E!Hub.
I wore Boon's big jacket front to back. His jacket looks like a Tattoo-ed Polar bear!
I make a sexy tattooed polar bear! HAHA! See the word 'sexy' on me?

Jasper.

Yay! Vinni! We grew up together even though Sufen and I always bullied you when we were young. You were such a complain queen then.
I love this girl so much! All grown up now. My xiao mei!

With FenFen Sufen. I effing love this girl. My sister since we were young and we were the closest because we are almost the same age! Hey, admit it, you are older than me by 6 months. Just so happened to be born the year before me. BUT WE ARE STILL THE SAME AGE NOW! HAHAHAHA. Until your birthday comes.


Me looking like a tattoo-ed polar bear in Boon's jacket. He was really kind to lend it to me. Actually I just took it and wore it before we went out. HAHA.
Creds to Vinni for this photo.

I really look frozen here. Was totally hibernating inside. I'm a tattooed polar bear!
We sang from 2+ til 7+ and by then I was having a splitting headache and my mood was all drained in that session.
Was planning to stay for another night since they were checking out the next day,
but I got a fever of 38.6C and went home. Totally spoiled everything :(

If everybody's childhood had a face, ours would look the same. We grew up together and I fucking love them.
Few years back, Sufen brought her friend to our chalet, and when her friend reached and saw everyone,
her friend looked at Sufen with a fucking shocked face.
After Sufen asked her what was wrong, her friend exclaimed,"Why are all your noses the same!!!!"
HAHAHA. I love our noses. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Ok that's not all the photos that were taken that day but these are the more interesting ones.

(Today)
I am currently waiting for Cabbage and Bernard to come back with my lunch.
McDonald's McWings! And my grassjelly.
That grassjelly from Nic's chalet buffet made me love grassjelly.
Please refer to that drool-inducing photo of that bowl of grassjelly.
I had like, 3 bowls of it >.< (Oops! Ssshhh.)
Here's an sms I just sent Darling:
"they are taking forever to come back from orchard eh laogong. I am dying from hunger. If I die, please tell my mum they killed me."
He didn't reply ._.

HOLIDAYS ARE FREAKING HERE! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
Okay, I have a unfinished post I did halfway yesterday but right now my newly done nails are drying off,
so I don't wanna type too much so I'll finish the post tomorrow. Tons of photos to post anyway.
I spent the whole day after school doing my nails myself. Chio-ness!
Photo tomorrow if you wanna see.
Yes I know I'm very 'gan-cheong', holidays start tomorrow but I already do my nails today. Haha.
Byebye.

p/s: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!
p/p/s: Sorry, I'm a lil nutty because....

HOLIDAYS ARE HERE!!!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

I miss you like fuck. i miss you i miss you.

Very sad and worried for Baby. He has fever of 39.5 Degrees Celsius.
I somehow know tomorrow's a goner.

Today I shall re-type what I lost in the lost post (?)

I really like old school music lah.
Actually I'm not sure if it's old school
but I just like music from the boyband era.
I was like, primary 1 or something when I listened to Backstreet Boys.
Those days were the Boyband Era, because there are many and they're all great!
Like Backstreet Boys, Westlife, N*SYNC and A1 (my fav!)
My favourite was A1 because Ben Adams is soooo cute!
OMG. If A1 ever comes back I will still worship them.
Backstreet Boys are still around, and are still great,
even though Kevin has left the group.
BSB's having a new album soon and are coming to SG for F1!
Westlife are still around, not so great but still alright.
Bryan left the group.
And of course we all know the only one left from N*SYNC is..
Justin Timberlake. The rest have almost slummed back to being 'normal people'.
Justin is better solo, everyone knows that.
He was never so famous when he was curly-haired in N*SYNC.
Le Sigh. Ben Adams oh Ben Adams. I wish A1 were still around.
My heart still melts when I listen to Like a Rose by A1.

My favourite movies are old too!
Pearl Harbour, Titanic and Romeo & Juilet(by Leonardo DiCaprio and Claire Danes)
are my favourite movies. Especially R&J.
I watched it when I was really young and wow, that has been my favourite movie ever since.
I wanna watch the movie again. Shall look to get it.
Some might think Titantic is a cheesy movie but I like it.
Actually the common thing between this 3 movies is not only the romance,
but that the lovers were all broken up. I am emo, I am.
Ok, at least Pearl Harbour there's still Ben Affleck (or was he the one who died?),
after Josh Hartnett died.

My cough is better today. If darling does get H1N1, I'm sure to get it as well.
Gah. Going to revise now. Toodles!

p/s: changed my blog background to a Pet Society wallpaper! Cabbage would know :)

Geez. Coughing away like mad.
I got it from darling. He was coughing for the past few days and I got it from him yesterday.
His cough must be power-packed to spread to me in a day.
He finally had fever last night after a few days of coughing.
Serves him right for always not listening to me about going to see doctor or self-medicate.
Le sigh.

The weather these days makes sleep so wonderfully wonderful when it's rainy and cold.
Tiredtired. No other word can be used to describe my life right now.
Plus the fact that I am sick. Yawns.
Tomorrow shall be a charging up day for me. I desperately need to stop this coughing at once.

Y'know, I've always been proud to be a Cantonese.
Somehow, other dialects seem to a little crude to me,
even though everyone else I know is of another dialect group.
Even Mommy is Hokkien (or Teochew?),
but my parents can speak most dialects,
which is common among adults in this generation.
However, I seriously doubt anyone's gonna be bilingual in our generation as adults.
Other than bengs and lians who speak fluent Hokkien (see what I mean by crude?),
I think when people my age become adults, dialects will be quite extinct.
Some people can't even speak Mandarin fluently now.
I can understand Hokkien and a lil bit of Teochew,
but I can speak Cantonese.
So going to Hong Kong will be no problemo for me.
Darling says in future when we go Hong Kong I shall be the speaker for him.
He understands it because of his parents but can't speak it.
I think Singapore in future will be full of sole-english speakers.
That is sad, I suppose.

Shall continue blogging tomorrow.
My throat's killin' me.
Goodnight cruel world.

Social Studies and Chemistry tomorrow!
Must push through, must!
I think Lu Laoshi thinks I shouldn't retake Chinese O's since I've already got an A2.
But I really don't want A2! I want A1!!!
Actually I'm not sure if I will get an A1 even if I retake, but well, no harm trying.

English Paper today.
My section one compo is a supposed touching story.
I actually cried while writing it.
Don't know if it will touch others, but it sure touched me (of course, I'm the writer =.=")
Section two was alright, I guess....
Stoned for question 3a.
What is one word which suggests "humankind plays an inconsequential role"?
Re-read the paragraph over and over again for about 5 minutes,
changing my answer 3 times after I was done stoning.
I actually only decided my final answer while doing 3b.
Explain in YOUR OWN WORDS the contradiction between the author's views of the universe and the truth.
(or something along that line, can't remember the exact words)
While I was explaining, I decided that 'futility' should be the correct answer for 3a, so I changed my answer again.
Heard after the paper that it's correct! Happy happy.
I hate summary. Think I screwed it up.
I got A2 for English this term by the way.
Because the entire percentage was based on one report we had to do for CA2.

Baby brought me to Pastamania for lunch today!
He got me Pastamania membership too!
They gave me a temporary card and I'm supposed to collect the proper card one month later.
Happy happy! It's 15 freaking dollars! But membership is quite worth it.
My Spice Fish Baked Pasta! Yummilicious.
Then we went to get Nicolas' present. Going to his Birthday Chalet on Sunday!

Venice oh Venice. Le sigh. Why did you rise and why did you fall.
Push through tomorrow! Yeah!!!!!!

Bloody fucker.
I typed an effing long post but when I published it,
for some reason OnSugar had logged me out.
And POOF goes the blog post.
Well, I still have something to say, though you won't understand it anyway.

Je t'aime et moi a promis que j'attendrais. Vous attendez et voyez, parce que vous verrez que je vous aime vraiment après tous. J'espère juste que vous vous rappellerez me.
Et j'espère aussi, cela quand vous retournez et je suis toujours ici, vous me recevrai de nouveau. Je vous aime vraiment que je juste ne peux pas vous laisser partir. S'il vous plaît.

Had an awfully awful nightmare about Dearests early this morning.
I woke up after this nightmare, at 9.40AM.
Gee, you guys were cruel.
But after having this nightmare, it made me wanna treasure you both more than ever,
for fear of ever losing you both.
You guys can call it a blessing in disguise.

Baby bought me new eyeliner today.
And Vitamin C chewy tablets! They taste so nice I ate 5 today,
even though the recommendation says 2-3 per day. HAHA!
Ate with darling, even though he says he bought them for me.
Happy happy! Vitamin C, here I come!

I am doing something really stupid.
I don't know why. It was rash and . In a moment of folly.
Too late to un-stick myself now.
I must face the outcome! Even though I highly doubt anything's gonna come out of it.
Perhaps it isn't me whose avoiding the problem.
This thought comforts me.
Ok, fine. I'll wait then. While you wait and see. It's fine.
I won't give up. Or, I'll try not to.

Prelims on Wednesday ~
Time flap-flaps and tweet-tweets. So quickly.
Just wanna get everything over and done with and end 2009.
The awful-lest year of my life, thanks to June 4th.
Weekends flap faster nowadays. Hate it.

School made us all nominate a teacher for the Most Caring Teacher Award.
Blod and I nominated Mr Poh!
He's really very nice as a form teacher.
Actually he's the best form teacher I've had so far,
probably because I always got bleh form teachers in the past.
Mrs Sin was alright.

I'm a lil' creepy sometimes, I realise.
It's just me, I know. Deep down.

" You might think I'm crazy, out of my mind.
Time isn't a problem, you will find.
Then you'll see, everything was worth the wait I left behind. " - Jamie, 240809, 1.09 AM

See what I saw on Twitter ! :

billyraycyrus You win ! I'm giving Miley a raise !!! Dangflabit !!!!

AH! That answers my question about whether Billy Ray Cyrus actually uses 'Dangflabit' outside of his lines from Hannah Montana.


Seriously, why do people actually have a heart? No, wait.
Firstly, is the heart or the mind the one which feels emotion?
Either one, fuck you, because well, fuck you.
In my opinion, the worst emotion God (or whatever Superior Being is up there) created was pain.
Not physical pain (everyone needs physical pain every now and then), I'm talking about emotion pain.
Again, seriously, FUCK YOU.
I tried to say something positive to myself everytime I think about this loss, yet after that my subconsciousness tells myself,
"Y'know it ain't true, girl."
It's one of those moments where I get an angel-Jamie telling me nice things then a devil-Jamie appearing on the other side of me,
contradicting whatever angel-Jamie says.
In truth, I think I actually like devil-Jamie better.
Not because she tells me emo stuff, but whatever she says seems to be true,
even though Truth is an absolutely sucker.
I know I've gone through this one too many times. In fact, I seem to be talking about this everytime I blog.
It's an inevitable thing. Blogging makes me think about my feelings.
Hence my conclusion is, I feel this way everyday.
So sorry you actually have to read all this fucked up shit everyday.
I just can't help it. My mind plays tricks on me every moment.

I miss the popcorn chicken from the school canteen. Been having it for most of the week as recess.
After school yesterday, lunched with Dearests and Hazel Ang aka ZiNing! I shall call Hazel ZiNing from now on, just to annoy her xD
Blod calls her AngJiePi. I think ZiNing sounds so much nicer!
Then went back to school as Xiong and I had English O Levels Orals.
English Orals was... I bought metal ear sticks for my helix piercing just for orals. Ack, you wouldn't understand why plastic ones can't do.
I didn't do as spectacularly as I did during practice with Mrs Wallace,
but I suppose I didn't do badly either.
See, here's the point. Jamie doesn't settle for average! NEVER! Raar!
Ok, I think I'm a lil' nutty.

Prelims next week! Can't express my thoughts on that.

I ask myself this every week - why do weekends end so quickly when they take so bloody long to come?
Can't wait for prelims to finish. Wanna go shopping at Bugis! What, can't a girl look forward to the future!?
Future, future. All I think about these days. Yet it just can't come fast enough, even though everyday is the future to a past date.

"What if I get lost on the way, would you come back to get me?"
What is one supposed to do when she feels awfully awful?
Make that all the time.

Love photos in grayscale.

I seem to go through this on a daily basis.
I know it isn't good for me. Nor my mind.
Actually it's just my mind. I'm going crazy, I'm convinced.

Well, Chinese O Levels results came out yesterday.
Even though I prayed for an A, I was quite disappointed with my A2.
Hence I am retaking it. I got Distinction for the Chinese Orals, so thank goodness.
Actually a lot of the others think I'm really crazy to retake when I've already got an A2.
Some got B3 and don't even bother. Haha.
But I've gotten A1 many times before, I know I can do it this time too. JYJY!

Was incredibly grumpy and annoyed today. Hence was quite snappy.

Sometimes the things I do might be crazy and they probably make you wonder what I am thinking at all.
Well, the fact is that if you think you actually know me, don't even try to figure me out, because you've hardly scratched the surface.
And this is referring to no one in particular. Just anyone.
Not even the closest people in my life know me deep down, regardless of how well they know me.
Everyone has a part which they keep to themselves. I just happen to have a bigger part.
People change. I change.
As a friend once told me, the only constant in life is Change.
It was during that moment I realised the truth of it all.
This is probably why sometimes you feel you hardly know me. I think Xiong and Blod feels that way sometimes.
I apologize, I think I'm not a good friend.
It's just that sometimes I like to detach myself from everyone and everything. Sometimes I'm afraid of being alone.
Yet there are days when I feel like being with my own thoughts and I don't feel like talking to anyone.
Please don't take it personally, there's nothing wrong with the both of you. Thanks for always being here when I need you guys.
You guys are the best to me, you really ought to know.

I think there's something wrong with me.
For the past few days I'd put off going to the toilet a couple of times when my bladder was full
because I was either busy doing something else or was lazy. So I just held everything in til I can't stand it anymore.
But today I think it has reached it's limit. Because I feel like pee-ing every 15 mins or something.
And I just can't hold it in. Dang flabbit. At least I am ok now.

Tomorrow's my turn for English O Levels Orals. Hope Blodwen did well for hers today.
I'm the SIXTH! Happy happy.
I bought metal ear sticks today for my helix piercing becuse it is to make a good impression to the examiners tomorrow.
No earrings or studs for me. Actually been wearing ear sticks lately so it's ok.

I'm gonna pack my bag now for school tomorrow. Must remember to bring school tie for orals and thermometer.

Must sleep before the witching hour!

I wish it would burn. Then I'd scatter the ashes and the wind would carry them far away from this broken heart.

Everything happens for a reason. I used to believe it, but it was a happiness that abruptly disintegrated.
Following that, my faith in this statement undoubtedly wavered but I guess I took it that it happened for a reason too.
No doubt too, that even though I've tried to shelve that episode, it disturbs me everyday.
Particularly today, when I was alone.
I was ready to tell Blodwen everything today, but didn't have any chance to do so even though we said we'd talk about it during EFL in the hall.

Speaking of which, EFL was quite entertaining today. Haha.
Furthermore, EFL ended early due to English O Levels Orals and they had to arrange the tables and chairs back in the hall.
After that went to look for Darling.
He bought 2 packets of wheel wheel crackers for me! My favourite! ♥

Good luck to me for tomorrow's Chinese results. Murder me should I not get an A.

p/s: Haha talking to Cabbage on MSN even though she's in the room and I'm in the living room. Fun-ness!

p/p/s: Annoyingly ironic how people used to complain that my blog didn't have a tagboard, saying that comments were troublesome and all,
but now that I've added a tagboard, nobody tags me =.="

I'm supposed to be asleep but just gonna post this as a reminder for me:

* get Baby to finally buy me new eyeliner
* get a new pair of fake eyelashes to replace the one Patches nearly ate and spoilt (more about it later)
* talk to Baby about something (I bet I'll forget what this 'something' is, but I ain't gonna post it here)
* go shoe-shopping with Baby
* ask Baby when he is going to go Bugis with me

Ok that's all. Think I need to increase my depth of language. Technically there isn't anything wrong with it but I just want to be cheem-er. Okay?

* Today, I found a shrivelled black thing on my make-up box(yes, the pink one) and I scrutinized at it and realised it was a stray fake eyelash.
It was shrivelled, messy and curly and all (yeah, yeah you may give your 'eew' face now) and so I picked it up and (omg, I think I squashed a black tiny fly on the keyboard while I was typing, mega-"EEEW!". Excuse me for a while to go wash my finger) shoved it in front of Mommy's nose while she was cutting something on the chopping board and asked why my eyelash(fake) became like that. Her reaction?

"Ask Ah Meow."
"Huh, ask Ah Meow? Why!"
"She bit it."
"Huh, bit it?! Are you sure?!"
"Well, I found it on the floor..."

AAARRGGGHH. It was my first and favourite pair and bought by Darling tooo! Was heartbroken and angry but didn't scold Patches.
Even if I scolded her she wouldn't even know what she'd done, that innocent imp (how ironic). And I ain't gonna rub her nose in it anyway.
$#^#^$%*(%*)%^$^$
I went to compare the okay side with the shrivelled side and man, it increases my melancholy.
SLEEP NOW. SCHOOL TOMORROW(poo-ey). BABY'S GONNA COOK ME CAMPBELL'S CHICKEN MUSHROOM TOMORROW. HAPPY(TRYING TO BE).

p/s: Talked to Darling while we were sitting in the kitchen just now about his old escapades and how I went through all that.
       And he said a very sweet thing to me.
       "You were always brave. I've always thought that you were brave everyday." ♥

Thank you Baby. You make me love you more every day. Or maybe even every second. I love you.

The only reason that you cant turn back time is that the rest of the world is still going at the same old pace right?
What if the whole world insisted that today was still yesterday,
would we be able to carry on that tomorrow is today instead?
Hai, you don't understand what I'm saying.
Nevermind. Just one of my stupid theories.


I think everyone knows that the future seems to travel in a slow speed most of the time unless you're having fun,
while the past seems to travel at a greater speed when you look back.
Indeed, it's been 5 years since graduating from primary school and it is now that I miss those innocent days.
It is true that as we grow up, we find the world more and more tainted and it isn't just because the world is changing everyday,
but also the sad fact that we realise more and more ugly things in life as we watch and learn everything.


Patches gets free cat food today! It came in a pretty green box like a present with a ribbon on it.
I dislike green but this green is pretty! The cat food can is that pretty green too and it makes me happy looking at it,
for some weird unknown reason.


My house is going to have a tortoise. Because Aunt is renting her house out and so she asked us to temporarily take care of it.
That tortoise is A-N-C-I-E-N-T, I tell you!
It's even older than me and even(i suspect) older than Cabbage.
That tortoise used to live in the bathroom of my Grandma's house and ever since I could remember it has been there until
Grandma moved into Aunt's house, and it was brought along to Aunt's house.
I remember I was afraid to go to the toilet at Grandma's house when I was really young because there were dogs in the kitchen,
plus tortoise in the bathroom and whenever I wanted to go to the toilet I would get Dad to carry me to the toilet. 
I was afraid of dogs last time so I didn't dare to step into the kitchen. Plus there were like 3 or 4 dogs.
OMG. Nightmare. Quite smelly I must admit. That's why I didn't like going to Grandma's house when I was young.
This Grandma is my paternal Grandma. The only person I like there is my Aunt. Even though she is naggy with a squeaky voice.
I admit I love my mother's side of my family much more.


Speaking of which, cousin Nicolas is celebrating his 21st birthday at chalet on a Sunday, August 30th even though his birthday is September 1.
Was thinking I can't go because I've got school the next day + Prelims are going on at that time,
but I checked my timetable and lucky enough, guess what!
The paper is Geography and then after that is Teachers' Day concert but since I don't take Geog,
I don't hafta go to school after all!
Initially decided to go to school for Teachers' Day concert because it was Be-Youself-Day so I can wear home clothes,
but if Cabbage is staying over at Nic's chalet then I will as well.
But I am still contemplating about whether I am going . The staying over bit will come after I've decided to go.


One thing I hate is when my multiple texts get no replies.
One text getting ignored is fine since everyone does that at some point of their lives, but multiple texts getting ignored really annoys me.


Changed my Twitter background! Even though it's a little off my style but it's still nice.
Pondering about tomorrow. Asshole.